Forgetful Me

After LDP ended this summer I had the opportunity to go to a 4 day, Power and Love school in Madison, Wisconsin. It was amazing, I saw God, once again, move in amazing ways but I was most impacted by some of the people there who I could tell really knew the Lord. Like I mean really really knew Him well. I could tell because they spoke out what the Holy Spirit had to say, because they loved EVERY person they met without condition or hesitation. It inspired me so much, and I desired to live this out more and more too - to be completely and totally surrendered to the Lords work. It was amazing and incredible what the Lord did as I started stepping out of my comfort zone in ways I never had. Then, as I started university two weeks ago I wanted Christ to rock my University, for people to experience Him undeniably. Every day I was looking for how I could do the Lords work there. As I tried and tried to do this I found that I became stressed out because I knew that I had not done things each day where I knew I could have. I was stoked to do Jesus’ work but I just ended up stressed and worn out.


The other day as I came to the Lord in prayer, Jesus rocked my little world with the truth and reminder that He is pursuing me. It was SO freeing!!! With this reminder, I found out that lies had crept into my mind. Lies that I hand’t realized I was believing: After seeing radical christians live life, I thought that if I didn't live in the same way that they did, God wouldn't love me, because i wasn’t living in all the fullness of life that he had for me. I had forgotten that I am UNCONDITIONALLY loved and pursued by Jesus, and that was making me stressed. After all the times I was trying so a hard to DO God’s will and stressed that I wouldn’t do enough or do it well enough, I came home, and in the secret place, He reminded me of His love.

It’s amazing how often I, and I believe all of us, need those reminders that we are loved. You are loved SOOOOOO incredibly much and we can see it by the price that Jesus paid for us. “His appearance was marred more than any man” (Isaiah 52:14) - basically His face was destroyed more than any persons ever was because of all the beatings -that is the price He paid for YOU!!!

The reminder that we don’t have to earn His love is amazing! You are already loved! The Father said to Jesus “This is my Son in whom I am well pleased” before He even started his final three year ministry (Matt 3:17). Jesus said to the criminal who was hanging with Him “Truly I say to you, today you shall be with me in paradise” (Luke 23:43). Surely the criminal hand’t earned that love nor could he earn it - he was about to die! Jesus loved, loves, and will love you, because you are you. Not because of the things you have or haven’t done but because you are His!!!!!! Rest in the peace that you do not have to earn God’s love. Pause, and think of that!!!! He already loves you!

When you seek Him you WILL find Him because He is perusing you with passion. Listen to Him with this question: ‘What do you love about me God?’ You are gonna be blown away! NEVER do we have to live in stress or anxiety, Why? Because Jesus loves His girl, His bride, the church!
It’s so easy to forget that we are loved. It’s so easy to fall back into the thinking that the better we live the more God will love us. That’s what i did. When we know how God sees us we will also know how he sees the people around us, and then it’s so natural to live like Jesus did.


(Also, do yourself a favor and read Psalm 139 again, it’s amazing!!!!)

You guys are all gems!
-Seth